overdue

well, baba ghannouj is officially late to the party. brian and i keep trying to explain to him/her that there's much more room out here, there's food, all sorts of good stuff. but, no dice. we all went to the doctor together this morning for the fateful appointment. i'm up to 3cm now, which is definite progress. she seemed to think i have a good chance of going on my own in the next couple of days, so we tabled the induction discussion for now. i go back in first thing wednesday morning if the baby's not here yet, and then we'd most likely go ahead and schedule the induction. i got all excited this morning after my appointment because i was having some pretty good contractions, stronger than the ones i'd been having. but, after a long walk and a nap, they faded out. this whole thing is all very discouraging...i KNOW that i'm only one day overdue, i KNOW that i won't be pregnant forever, i KNOW that the baby's coming very soon one way or another. but, it doesn't make the waiting, the anticipation, the buildup and letdown any easier at all. i can know something intellectually, but not be able to handle it emotionally. between the pain, the hormones, and the general feeling that i've been beaten by a baseball bat, it's hard to be objective.

hopefully my next post will be a birth announcement.